I often get into conversations with people about my travels. On one hand, I want to share my experiences and people are interested to hear about my life. On the other hand, I don’t want to seem like I’m bragging and I feel like people get annoyed if I go on too long.
Wanderlust invokes a lot of mixed feelings.
Today I’m feeling conflicted.
I love my home- my studies- my family- my friends- and my overall path in life right now….
But there is this part of me that refuses to silence. I don’t feel like it should be silenced…but it makes being content with life, difficult. Being content in the present moment is something I strive for at all times. Life is too short to feel otherwise.
For those of you who don’t have the bug– feel lucky.
I want to establish my career, I want to build my future, I want to create a life for myself with meaningful work..
But there it is.. nagging me to put on a backpack and go. Explore new things, meet new people, have lazy days in hostels, make memories while in transit..For some reason going to class doesn’t make me feel like I’m doing anything with my life, even though I’m doing something very huge.
Living at home has become the new adventurous challenge– Home has now become the great unknown — and I’m embracing that for now.
Its a bitch….. but its my bitch. So, I’ll tuck her away until the time comes when its time to go again…and then I will fly.
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Its been almost a year since my last entry. I can say–as I’m sure in all of your lives–that A LOT has happened.
I was living in Nepal- Living the good life. I had finally ”settled.” I had friends, work, and a house! I had started accumulating ”stuff” and I was involved in a society that was not my own. Along the way, I made amazing friends, had wonderful/crazy/happy/joyful times and learned A LOT about myself and the culture in which I was living.
In May I took a quick trip home for my cousin’s wedding. The entire vibe of home just felt comfortable. For once in my life I wasn’t running away from normalcy, but rather embracing it with both arms. Nothing felt better than being around family, familiarity, and 24 hour electricity and water 🙂
I decided to stay the summer.
As summer winded down–I still hadn’t had enough of home. I was content. Happy even. So I decided to put down temporary roots again and restart my education. Thankfully, 3 years ago, I made one of the best decisions I had ever made– I finished my Associates Degree. Luckily for me, I could start right where I left off and be on my way to a career I’ve wanted since I worked at an orphanage for children who are disabled in Thailand all those years ago.
So here I am, half way through my first semester (3 and 1/2 more to go!! 🙂 ) — starting something I’ve long since missed… WRITING! I don’t know why I didn’t keep up a blog while in Nepal/India. It would have been interesting- that’s for sure. I know people asked me to, but I just didn’t feel it at the time.
Today I found out some wonderful news, that sparked my interest to write again. I got the final acceptance for an internship abroad in Costa Rica. I will be starting in January and working in San Jose. Luckily for me, I’ve already lived there and have some amazing friends that I’m excited to see again. Granted, I won’t have my partner in crime with me this time–My lovely sister Kara… But alas, it will be yet another beautiful adventure–
And you’ll all be along for the ride.
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